There is no opposing in the denying

Today one is feeling sad. To humans, sadness is such an unwholesome thing, like drugs, physical attachment to things which are worldly. It will water down. In time then talk about it again. The way one has an earthly father and mother and the way one has a heavenly father. 


However one is sad because one seems to be the only one which does it. One seems to be the only one inside, be it in it, or in Him. The rest may be there, but there doesn't seem to have much interaction, one still feels like the only one. And because one is the only one in it, one is happily serving, and supporting, no longer because of the catching of the ball in aloneness, or the wholeness in which the calling is upon one. 


One is sad because one is the only one inside it, and now that it is over, one seems like the only one which is sad. Even though one had been there majorly the time, a presence, even. One sort of misses it.